God is just something we invented so we can feel better about dying. I once believed in God, it's how we we were raised. I'm sorry I know alot of people who will resent we what I say, But I'v e seen it. thhere is no god, only hydrogen carbon and oxygen, the ultimate creators of life, the essentials. You are on your own like it or not, hope you at less have family good,luck.ex alltar boy whohas seen it No God
I dont know what to think about this thread?
But I do know there is a God and you mursso will know there is a God when your burning in Hell! Some of you guys are unbelievable!
Quote Originally Posted by mrusso:
God is just something we invented so we can feel better about dying. I once believed in God, it's how we we were raised. I'm sorry I know alot of people who will resent we what I say, But I'v e seen it. thhere is no god, only hydrogen carbon and oxygen, the ultimate creators of life, the essentials. You are on your own like it or not, hope you at less have family good,luck.ex alltar boy whohas seen it No God
I dont know what to think about this thread?
But I do know there is a God and you mursso will know there is a God when your burning in Hell! Some of you guys are unbelievable!
But I do know there is a God and you mursso will know there is a God when your burning in Hell! Some of you guys are unbelievable!
I think its funny how many attack people who are actually just stating facts about religion
I side with mrrusso on the theories of facts. Sure religions are in place to guide people to do the right thing which I think is good. But depending on where you live on the planet pretty much decides on which god is REAL OR NOT. Another thing men have written all of the religion stories hundreds of years ago so now people believe them to be real????? Great example of a future religion people will be serious about in a hundo or more, Scientology I forgot dudes name who started it but its pretty amazing that anyone is claims this religion. But Im sure they all started out this way and in time people forget.
And as far as letting mrrusso know he will be burning in hell. You do know that the same guys who created the stories in the bible also wrote the story of hell to detour the people from going against their book right?
Quote Originally Posted by PGram13:
I dont know what to think about this thread?
But I do know there is a God and you mursso will know there is a God when your burning in Hell! Some of you guys are unbelievable!
I think its funny how many attack people who are actually just stating facts about religion
I side with mrrusso on the theories of facts. Sure religions are in place to guide people to do the right thing which I think is good. But depending on where you live on the planet pretty much decides on which god is REAL OR NOT. Another thing men have written all of the religion stories hundreds of years ago so now people believe them to be real????? Great example of a future religion people will be serious about in a hundo or more, Scientology I forgot dudes name who started it but its pretty amazing that anyone is claims this religion. But Im sure they all started out this way and in time people forget.
And as far as letting mrrusso know he will be burning in hell. You do know that the same guys who created the stories in the bible also wrote the story of hell to detour the people from going against their book right?
I have been waiting all day to post this. Let me tell you guys a secret. The reason I said blueberrys was not worth his salt was because i sent him a friend request and he denied it. But now i understand why and agree with his decision. I'm a failure, blueberrys is a popular guy and an alpha male. Alpha males will instinctually weed out the losers from their presence. So it wasnt blueberries fault that he denied me, he was just acting on instinct to rid his life of failures.
When I realized this today I welled up. blueberrys if you are out there i apologize. I'm the one who is not worth his salt. Earlier I had a hot radiator on my car and held my hand on it for a few seconds. It hurt but I had no idea why i had done that to myself. Then I remembered blueberry. I was instinctually punishing myself because of what i had done to blueberry.
blueberry i love the last couple songs you put up. i'm a failure and you just weeded me out i understand this now. I have punished myself accordingly.
Tonight as I look up to the stars and wonder why me, I can still hear the loud music of fun parties I use to be invited to as a teenager and young man. I can still remember that special brown eyed girl who once upon a time caught my eye and sparkled.
It is time now to take meds and melt into oblivion, into tommorrow. as i fade away, i take an hour or 2 to remember yester-year, I cry.
I still remember you brown eyes, I wait yet another night
I have been waiting all day to post this. Let me tell you guys a secret. The reason I said blueberrys was not worth his salt was because i sent him a friend request and he denied it. But now i understand why and agree with his decision. I'm a failure, blueberrys is a popular guy and an alpha male. Alpha males will instinctually weed out the losers from their presence. So it wasnt blueberries fault that he denied me, he was just acting on instinct to rid his life of failures.
When I realized this today I welled up. blueberrys if you are out there i apologize. I'm the one who is not worth his salt. Earlier I had a hot radiator on my car and held my hand on it for a few seconds. It hurt but I had no idea why i had done that to myself. Then I remembered blueberry. I was instinctually punishing myself because of what i had done to blueberry.
blueberry i love the last couple songs you put up. i'm a failure and you just weeded me out i understand this now. I have punished myself accordingly.
Tonight as I look up to the stars and wonder why me, I can still hear the loud music of fun parties I use to be invited to as a teenager and young man. I can still remember that special brown eyed girl who once upon a time caught my eye and sparkled.
It is time now to take meds and melt into oblivion, into tommorrow. as i fade away, i take an hour or 2 to remember yester-year, I cry.
I still remember you brown eyes, I wait yet another night
I feel the need to socialize. I am a shut in. I go to the grocery store and feel like I want to talk to the people there and all the pretty girls but then again I think they would think I was weird for doing that even though I am a good looking tall guy. I also go to the convenience store to buy lottery tickets and to visit the Redbox they have to rent DVD's. Please accept me here so I can shoot the dirt with you guys.
Is this for real,,,, Americans sometimes r bizarre .... u dont c case like this at the Caribbean....
Quote Originally Posted by ProtoStar:
I feel the need to socialize. I am a shut in. I go to the grocery store and feel like I want to talk to the people there and all the pretty girls but then again I think they would think I was weird for doing that even though I am a good looking tall guy. I also go to the convenience store to buy lottery tickets and to visit the Redbox they have to rent DVD's. Please accept me here so I can shoot the dirt with you guys.
Is this for real,,,, Americans sometimes r bizarre .... u dont c case like this at the Caribbean....
I accepted your friend request homie. Don't dispair. We are and always shall be the best of friends, and our covers friendship cements this. I am sorry it took me this long to accept your request, I just noticed it today.
I am glad that we could put this difficulty behind us and move on from here Proto. I am just trying to help my boy ProtoStar improve his life.......and I know we can do it buddy. We'll be hitting $2000 plays left and right in no time buddy, you just watch.
Here is another song for you Proto. Remember always keep your head up. Your buddy blueberries is here for you: I like you the way you are Proto
Proto I just saw this......
I accepted your friend request homie. Don't dispair. We are and always shall be the best of friends, and our covers friendship cements this. I am sorry it took me this long to accept your request, I just noticed it today.
I am glad that we could put this difficulty behind us and move on from here Proto. I am just trying to help my boy ProtoStar improve his life.......and I know we can do it buddy. We'll be hitting $2000 plays left and right in no time buddy, you just watch.
Here is another song for you Proto. Remember always keep your head up. Your buddy blueberries is here for you: I like you the way you are Proto
hey equal, what happened to your awesome music picks? im waiting for a few more for my c.d. Maybe some air supply, Michael bolton. Such AWESOME stuff!!!
hey equal, what happened to your awesome music picks? im waiting for a few more for my c.d. Maybe some air supply, Michael bolton. Such AWESOME stuff!!!
blueberrys i am simply humbled by your generosity and your character as a person is second to none. The song brought me to tears. We can shoot the dirt anytime you like.
I regained consciousness yesterday and for some reason I felt happy. Then I immediately thought why would I be happy? My house is worth about half of what it was when I bought it, my marriage is on the rocks, and I lost my entire bankroll. Upwards of 17 thousand dollars. Went on tilt and lost it.
Thankful I am that I am alive and healthy. Thankful I am for my health, my families health, and blueberry's health. But I still struggle with depression and its been very bad yesterday and today. I had such a promising life. I had a family business I could have taken over which would have led to an income of 200k a year with half ownership of a business worth about 5 million. I threw that away on drugs and alcohol. Parents sold the business and I have nowhere to get a job. Now I am worth about -60k. If I got a job, it would be for about 15-20k a year. This makes me want to hurt myself. Not only did I screw myself but even worse, I screwed my family. I have a smith and wesson 357 and its really talking to me lately.
So here I sit in our den, with about 7 holes in wall, most of which are covered up by my beautiful wife. Covered by pictures and a clock. Our den has pictures in the weirdest places and a little round clock in the middle of nowhere. It doesn't fit in. Like me it doesn't fit into its surroundings. My parents hate me. I hate myself. I had life by the balls, I was born into a situation most would die for and I spit on it because I wanted to get high instead. My parents just let me get messed up as a 15 year old kid instead of punishing me and making me get my life straight. I don't understand this.
So I sit here, all I can do is take some pills and wish for a better existence. Wish I could turn back the clock or wake up from the bad dream. I will cry myself to sleep tonight, for the 3rd night in a row. I will sleep all day tomorrow because I have nothing to get up for. I've blown my one chance in life. Its gone. I play the lottery and cry everytime I check it and I have not won it.
Nobody will call me tomorrow except my wife to tell me to wakeup she is on the way home. I may hit myself at that time. Hurt myself. I'm broke. I'm a joke.
blueberrys i am simply humbled by your generosity and your character as a person is second to none. The song brought me to tears. We can shoot the dirt anytime you like.
I regained consciousness yesterday and for some reason I felt happy. Then I immediately thought why would I be happy? My house is worth about half of what it was when I bought it, my marriage is on the rocks, and I lost my entire bankroll. Upwards of 17 thousand dollars. Went on tilt and lost it.
Thankful I am that I am alive and healthy. Thankful I am for my health, my families health, and blueberry's health. But I still struggle with depression and its been very bad yesterday and today. I had such a promising life. I had a family business I could have taken over which would have led to an income of 200k a year with half ownership of a business worth about 5 million. I threw that away on drugs and alcohol. Parents sold the business and I have nowhere to get a job. Now I am worth about -60k. If I got a job, it would be for about 15-20k a year. This makes me want to hurt myself. Not only did I screw myself but even worse, I screwed my family. I have a smith and wesson 357 and its really talking to me lately.
So here I sit in our den, with about 7 holes in wall, most of which are covered up by my beautiful wife. Covered by pictures and a clock. Our den has pictures in the weirdest places and a little round clock in the middle of nowhere. It doesn't fit in. Like me it doesn't fit into its surroundings. My parents hate me. I hate myself. I had life by the balls, I was born into a situation most would die for and I spit on it because I wanted to get high instead. My parents just let me get messed up as a 15 year old kid instead of punishing me and making me get my life straight. I don't understand this.
So I sit here, all I can do is take some pills and wish for a better existence. Wish I could turn back the clock or wake up from the bad dream. I will cry myself to sleep tonight, for the 3rd night in a row. I will sleep all day tomorrow because I have nothing to get up for. I've blown my one chance in life. Its gone. I play the lottery and cry everytime I check it and I have not won it.
Nobody will call me tomorrow except my wife to tell me to wakeup she is on the way home. I may hit myself at that time. Hurt myself. I'm broke. I'm a joke.
I have been reading this thread every since you started it like many others who probably never post back.
I just want to say a few things, you are lucky to be able to go to sleep at night knowing you can wake up the next day. Talking about your 357 smith & wesson...etc is BS.
Do you know how many terminal ill people out their in this world would trade their life for yours in a heart beat, so they could go to bed knowing they can spend some more time with their children and wife...etc.
Depression is something you create in your mind, you got to get your head out from between your ass. One thing i have learned in my life is nobody cares about you as much as you care about yourself. Pushing up daisy's you can't think about the good memorys, you can't hear the music, and you sure can't build that bankroll back up over time.
Sure life sucks sometimes, but it sucks for everybody not just you.
ProtoStar,
I have been reading this thread every since you started it like many others who probably never post back.
I just want to say a few things, you are lucky to be able to go to sleep at night knowing you can wake up the next day. Talking about your 357 smith & wesson...etc is BS.
Do you know how many terminal ill people out their in this world would trade their life for yours in a heart beat, so they could go to bed knowing they can spend some more time with their children and wife...etc.
Depression is something you create in your mind, you got to get your head out from between your ass. One thing i have learned in my life is nobody cares about you as much as you care about yourself. Pushing up daisy's you can't think about the good memorys, you can't hear the music, and you sure can't build that bankroll back up over time.
Sure life sucks sometimes, but it sucks for everybody not just you.
there you go equal, miley cyrus, probably the best singer of all time!!!
OK OK, if i keep this shit up im going to puke.
NOW, to be serious. alright proto. im going out on a limb here and go with you being serious after reading that last post. You are only 30 dude? You can start over again!! Everything will eventually be alright! i was 45 with almost a 1/2 a million dollars and guess what. Fucked it off on drugs. Pretty sick,uh. Dont you think that i think about that shit every fucking day? But i kept on going, got off the shit, and got a decent job. you can do the same. youll never forget about what happened, but you can overcome. just do it.
there are a lot of others who have fucked up, and turned things around. i did it and was about 20 years older than you.
there you go equal, miley cyrus, probably the best singer of all time!!!
OK OK, if i keep this shit up im going to puke.
NOW, to be serious. alright proto. im going out on a limb here and go with you being serious after reading that last post. You are only 30 dude? You can start over again!! Everything will eventually be alright! i was 45 with almost a 1/2 a million dollars and guess what. Fucked it off on drugs. Pretty sick,uh. Dont you think that i think about that shit every fucking day? But i kept on going, got off the shit, and got a decent job. you can do the same. youll never forget about what happened, but you can overcome. just do it.
there are a lot of others who have fucked up, and turned things around. i did it and was about 20 years older than you.
there you go equal, miley cyrus, probably the best singer of all time!!!
OK OK, if i keep this shit up im going to puke.
NOW, to be serious. alright proto. im going out on a limb here and go with you being serious after reading that last post. You are only 30 dude? You can start over again!! Everything will eventually be alright! i was 45 with almost a 1/2 a million dollars and guess what. Fucked it off on drugs. Pretty sick,uh. Dont you think that i think about that shit every fucking day? But i kept on going, got off the shit, and got a decent job. you can do the same. youll never forget about what happened, but you can overcome. just do it.
there are a lot of others who have fucked up, and turned things around. i did it and was about 20 years older than you.
I never had a half million but the things I have been involved in and with has led me to be starting over at 31 as we speak. Its a crazy ride and who knows where it ends. But I know one thing I am having fun along the way and I will roll a blunt to that
Quote Originally Posted by SOBLATANT:
there you go equal, miley cyrus, probably the best singer of all time!!!
OK OK, if i keep this shit up im going to puke.
NOW, to be serious. alright proto. im going out on a limb here and go with you being serious after reading that last post. You are only 30 dude? You can start over again!! Everything will eventually be alright! i was 45 with almost a 1/2 a million dollars and guess what. Fucked it off on drugs. Pretty sick,uh. Dont you think that i think about that shit every fucking day? But i kept on going, got off the shit, and got a decent job. you can do the same. youll never forget about what happened, but you can overcome. just do it.
there are a lot of others who have fucked up, and turned things around. i did it and was about 20 years older than you.
I never had a half million but the things I have been involved in and with has led me to be starting over at 31 as we speak. Its a crazy ride and who knows where it ends. But I know one thing I am having fun along the way and I will roll a blunt to that
Lucan i was about to post almost the exact same thing. I have some of the same problems as proto, but feeling sorry for yourself and dwelling on the past does nothing but hurt you and the people that care about you!
Lucan i was about to post almost the exact same thing. I have some of the same problems as proto, but feeling sorry for yourself and dwelling on the past does nothing but hurt you and the people that care about you!
Here proto. This may help you. It has helped me recently fight off a depression. Hope it works the same for you. I am not trying to be funny. This really works.
Here proto. This may help you. It has helped me recently fight off a depression. Hope it works the same for you. I am not trying to be funny. This really works.
I was going through a sever depression then heard about niacin and I now take 2 500mg pills 3x a day for a total of 3,000mg a day and I feel amazing. I am dating a beautiful girl and couldn't be happier. I highly recommend trying it. It can't hurt anything. It is all natural. I do not believe in chemicals to alter peoples moods. It is just pharmaceutical companies robbing people getting them addicted to drugs. All the drugs you need are sold at your local vitamin store. Good luck.
I was going through a sever depression then heard about niacin and I now take 2 500mg pills 3x a day for a total of 3,000mg a day and I feel amazing. I am dating a beautiful girl and couldn't be happier. I highly recommend trying it. It can't hurt anything. It is all natural. I do not believe in chemicals to alter peoples moods. It is just pharmaceutical companies robbing people getting them addicted to drugs. All the drugs you need are sold at your local vitamin store. Good luck.
I forgot dudes name who started it but its pretty amazing that anyone is claims this religion. But Im sure they all started out this way and in time people forget. 
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