I am circumsized and have a 7 inch stinger, that is when I am shooting the dirt with a naked woman or in another situation that makes my stinger erect. I call it my stinger because it stings now.
I do not shower often. Maybe once or twice a week on average. Due to my depression. I think this may have led to a penile infection.
wrap your stinger in silly putty....
Quote Originally Posted by ProtoStar:
I am circumsized and have a 7 inch stinger, that is when I am shooting the dirt with a naked woman or in another situation that makes my stinger erect. I call it my stinger because it stings now.
I do not shower often. Maybe once or twice a week on average. Due to my depression. I think this may have led to a penile infection.
Guys I do have a confession to make that I could never make to my wife.
When I pulled out my penis for the 2 girls to look at it, I was standing on the little step on the edge of the lounge chair thing that is in every doctors office. I pulled it out and both of girls were pretty but one was beautiful. They sort of bent over to look at it closely and I was holding it in my hand.
2 thoughts came to mind. I wanted to maybe start stroking it to see if maybe it would turn one of them on or try to move it closer to see if maybe one would let me put it in their mouth.
You know how you daydream about stuff like that. I knew it would never come true, especially to me. Maybe if I was somebody worth a dam something like that could possibly happen. Then again I doubt they would want a stinger with white and red infection on the tip in their mouth.
I feel a little embarassed typing this to you guys but I don't have any guys in my life to shoot the dirt with like this so I decided to let it fly. Good night.
Holy Moly...
Quote Originally Posted by ProtoStar:
Guys I do have a confession to make that I could never make to my wife.
When I pulled out my penis for the 2 girls to look at it, I was standing on the little step on the edge of the lounge chair thing that is in every doctors office. I pulled it out and both of girls were pretty but one was beautiful. They sort of bent over to look at it closely and I was holding it in my hand.
2 thoughts came to mind. I wanted to maybe start stroking it to see if maybe it would turn one of them on or try to move it closer to see if maybe one would let me put it in their mouth.
You know how you daydream about stuff like that. I knew it would never come true, especially to me. Maybe if I was somebody worth a dam something like that could possibly happen. Then again I doubt they would want a stinger with white and red infection on the tip in their mouth.
I feel a little embarassed typing this to you guys but I don't have any guys in my life to shoot the dirt with like this so I decided to let it fly. Good night.
Boys I'm sorry if I went too far last time. Thats what I do. I go to far, make a clown out of myself then hate myself for it. Shooting the dirt is not worth making a clown out of myself.
Well I had thanksgiving today like everyone else. Went to my parents to eat. Did not want to go. My family thinks I'm an absolute joke. I can't stand most of my family for the simple reason that they cant stand me. I never provoked them or anything. They give me suttle mental jabs. It hurts.
The whole time I'm thinking I wish I could just fly away. Just climb onto the roof and fly away and be free. Be me. Next it will be Christmas then 2011. I wonder what kind of torture is waiting for me in 2011. I can't wait. I'll turn 34 in 2011. What a loser.
West End
I wish I could have sung this song and been these guys.
Boys I'm sorry if I went too far last time. Thats what I do. I go to far, make a clown out of myself then hate myself for it. Shooting the dirt is not worth making a clown out of myself.
Well I had thanksgiving today like everyone else. Went to my parents to eat. Did not want to go. My family thinks I'm an absolute joke. I can't stand most of my family for the simple reason that they cant stand me. I never provoked them or anything. They give me suttle mental jabs. It hurts.
The whole time I'm thinking I wish I could just fly away. Just climb onto the roof and fly away and be free. Be me. Next it will be Christmas then 2011. I wonder what kind of torture is waiting for me in 2011. I can't wait. I'll turn 34 in 2011. What a loser.
West End
I wish I could have sung this song and been these guys.
Jonner you need a hug too sometimes we all do. I only post here as protostar since I found this place. Team Covers can see that if they want.
I am just a lonely person man. Good grief I cant even post on a message board, you dont even know me and want to put an end to me. This sums up my life in one swift instance.
Jonner you need a hug too sometimes we all do. I only post here as protostar since I found this place. Team Covers can see that if they want.
I am just a lonely person man. Good grief I cant even post on a message board, you dont even know me and want to put an end to me. This sums up my life in one swift instance.
Jonner I tried to send you a message but you only accept them from friends.
You are the type that if you dont get your way as a child you take your ball home so nobody can play.
If you dont like a thread then how hard can it be to skip over it? Instead you call for it to be removed. Its just too hard to just ignore a freaking thread so you need it removed. People like you make me wonder man.
Jonner I tried to send you a message but you only accept them from friends.
You are the type that if you dont get your way as a child you take your ball home so nobody can play.
If you dont like a thread then how hard can it be to skip over it? Instead you call for it to be removed. Its just too hard to just ignore a freaking thread so you need it removed. People like you make me wonder man.
my avatar is a beautiful scene from the never ending story, my favorite movie as a child. When things are going wrong sometimes I think about this movie and sing the theme song associated with it. the song was sung by my favorite singer Lamatyle. Its a beautiful song that takes me back to way back when, to a time where I was free.
Never Ending Story
If only for a brief period of time it takes me back to a time and place where I was a good boy with a bright future.
my avatar is a beautiful scene from the never ending story, my favorite movie as a child. When things are going wrong sometimes I think about this movie and sing the theme song associated with it. the song was sung by my favorite singer Lamatyle. Its a beautiful song that takes me back to way back when, to a time where I was free.
Never Ending Story
If only for a brief period of time it takes me back to a time and place where I was a good boy with a bright future.
Sadly Artax who is the horse in the picture dies in the swamp of sadness that Atreyu who is the boy in the picture has to go through to get to Morla who is the wisest being in all of Fantasia.
At the end though Atreyu gets to make wishes and Artax the horse is brought back to life. The nothing had killed him in the swamp of sadness but he lives at the end!
I remember the summer this came out. I was swimming in a pool at granny's house, came in and watched this movie. It was the greatest thing I had ever seen. I had been bullied like Bastian was and the movie really stuck with me.
Sadly Artax who is the horse in the picture dies in the swamp of sadness that Atreyu who is the boy in the picture has to go through to get to Morla who is the wisest being in all of Fantasia.
At the end though Atreyu gets to make wishes and Artax the horse is brought back to life. The nothing had killed him in the swamp of sadness but he lives at the end!
I remember the summer this came out. I was swimming in a pool at granny's house, came in and watched this movie. It was the greatest thing I had ever seen. I had been bullied like Bastian was and the movie really stuck with me.
swahili i was bullied until i decided to fight back then i gained respect and freinds. When i started drugs and alcohol my exploits then gained even more respect and friends.
When I started smoking crack cocaine I started losing friends until I lost them all. In the process I also threw away my entire future which was very bright financially. These are things I cant help but dwell on daily. I can only take pills to numb the pain of it. I also lost my entire bankroll this year which I cannot shake off. 17.5 thousand which I had built up from a deposit of less than a thousand dollars.
you are making me very upset, bringing back all these memories and problems.
swahili i was bullied until i decided to fight back then i gained respect and freinds. When i started drugs and alcohol my exploits then gained even more respect and friends.
When I started smoking crack cocaine I started losing friends until I lost them all. In the process I also threw away my entire future which was very bright financially. These are things I cant help but dwell on daily. I can only take pills to numb the pain of it. I also lost my entire bankroll this year which I cannot shake off. 17.5 thousand which I had built up from a deposit of less than a thousand dollars.
you are making me very upset, bringing back all these memories and problems.
hey protostar, read my post #221 again. this is a true story, and the drug im referring to was cocaine. you need to be a warrior dude, and like i said, youre a lot younger then i was so you have an excellent chance to turns things back.
hey protostar, read my post #221 again. this is a true story, and the drug im referring to was cocaine. you need to be a warrior dude, and like i said, youre a lot younger then i was so you have an excellent chance to turns things back.
i went 1-3 today. Now I'm very depressed. So depressed I think I will not get out of bed tomorrow. Thankfully the time has come for me to take my meds and it wont be long until the pain is gone. Never get addicted to any kind of drug, it is horrible and will destroy your life. You will be sad and anxious all the time.
I just want to start over again. From age 12. This is where it all started to go wrong. I want to wake up from this long nightmare and be 12 again and start on the right path. But its not to be. I'm stuck here and the future is flying at me like a light beam. Fuck me i am screwed.
My wife gave me 1k to bet with. I know I will end up trying to hit 4 in a row. I will probably lose a game in the process and then will want to end it.
Hey man -
I get the weird feeling that this is some sort of social experiment. If you really are suicidal and need someone to shoot the breeze to take your mind off your problems, you can PM me. Gotta say that I'm just as skeptical as the others, but you sure can keep a thread going.
Also, maybe you should switch to system bets -- there are some legit ones in the "Systems and Strategies" forum. Sure has won me some money. Or maybe you do need to get your ass to a GA meeting. If your self esteem is suffering, you'll make friends there and form relationships with people who will care about you. Kind of feel like a heel for replying to you, but on the off-chance that you're really suffering, I'll take my chances.
Quote Originally Posted by ProtoStar:
i went 1-3 today. Now I'm very depressed. So depressed I think I will not get out of bed tomorrow. Thankfully the time has come for me to take my meds and it wont be long until the pain is gone. Never get addicted to any kind of drug, it is horrible and will destroy your life. You will be sad and anxious all the time.
I just want to start over again. From age 12. This is where it all started to go wrong. I want to wake up from this long nightmare and be 12 again and start on the right path. But its not to be. I'm stuck here and the future is flying at me like a light beam. Fuck me i am screwed.
My wife gave me 1k to bet with. I know I will end up trying to hit 4 in a row. I will probably lose a game in the process and then will want to end it.
Hey man -
I get the weird feeling that this is some sort of social experiment. If you really are suicidal and need someone to shoot the breeze to take your mind off your problems, you can PM me. Gotta say that I'm just as skeptical as the others, but you sure can keep a thread going.
Also, maybe you should switch to system bets -- there are some legit ones in the "Systems and Strategies" forum. Sure has won me some money. Or maybe you do need to get your ass to a GA meeting. If your self esteem is suffering, you'll make friends there and form relationships with people who will care about you. Kind of feel like a heel for replying to you, but on the off-chance that you're really suffering, I'll take my chances.
toft I would not do this if I was not really very depressed. Just how depressed I am I cannot tell you because nobody in the world knows how other people feel. I just know how other people act and how I feel. Most other people seem content, happy, confident even.
For months I could not get out of bed, even after 14 hours of sleep I would have to drag myself out of bed and even then I felt like I had gotten no sleep.
Then I lost my entire bankroll of 17.5 thousand. This bankroll was what I had all of my existing confidence riding on. When I lost it all after swearing to myself I would not bet more than $500 on 1 game, I became so depressed I can't explain it to you in words. I was planning on buying my wife things, my kid things, and luckily I did get to spend about 1k on them before I lost it all and took care of Christmas for my child.
I went to the only GA meeting in town and I swear to you the 2nd meeting the guy in charge told me I would be better off attending an NA meeting. None of them liked me and I'm no spring chicken but nobody there was under 55 years of age. That is the only meeting in town and I'm not going back to it.
I lost the $200 today I had won. Lost it playing poker online. I'm broke boys. I owe medical bills and will owe even more because I have to get this penile infection figured out. The dermatologist assistants didn't have a clue.
I want the 17k back but its not coming back. Things could be much worse though. I thankful for what I have. I just don't feel good man. I'm going to try to get off my meds and that is going to be very hard. I will take it slow. I will cry a lot.
Don't know what you got till its gone
toft I would not do this if I was not really very depressed. Just how depressed I am I cannot tell you because nobody in the world knows how other people feel. I just know how other people act and how I feel. Most other people seem content, happy, confident even.
For months I could not get out of bed, even after 14 hours of sleep I would have to drag myself out of bed and even then I felt like I had gotten no sleep.
Then I lost my entire bankroll of 17.5 thousand. This bankroll was what I had all of my existing confidence riding on. When I lost it all after swearing to myself I would not bet more than $500 on 1 game, I became so depressed I can't explain it to you in words. I was planning on buying my wife things, my kid things, and luckily I did get to spend about 1k on them before I lost it all and took care of Christmas for my child.
I went to the only GA meeting in town and I swear to you the 2nd meeting the guy in charge told me I would be better off attending an NA meeting. None of them liked me and I'm no spring chicken but nobody there was under 55 years of age. That is the only meeting in town and I'm not going back to it.
I lost the $200 today I had won. Lost it playing poker online. I'm broke boys. I owe medical bills and will owe even more because I have to get this penile infection figured out. The dermatologist assistants didn't have a clue.
I want the 17k back but its not coming back. Things could be much worse though. I thankful for what I have. I just don't feel good man. I'm going to try to get off my meds and that is going to be very hard. I will take it slow. I will cry a lot.
Boys I'm sorry if I went too far last time. Thats what I do. I go to far, make a clown out of myself then hate myself for it. Shooting the dirt is not worth making a clown out of myself.
Well I had thanksgiving today like everyone else. Went to my parents to eat. Did not want to go. My family thinks I'm an absolute joke. I can't stand most of my family for the simple reason that they cant stand me. I never provoked them or anything. They give me suttle mental jabs. It hurts.
The whole time I'm thinking I wish I could just fly away. Just climb onto the roof and fly away and be free. Be me. Next it will be Christmas then 2011. I wonder what kind of torture is waiting for me in 2011. I can't wait. I'll turn 34 in 2011. What a loser.
West End
I wish I could have sung this song and been these guys.
I'm actually to starting to think there's a chance he isn't full of shit
Proto, I know they are your family but don't let them take jabs at you knowing you want say anything. Say exactly what they did and say you don't understand why they would put you down like that on Thanksgiving. Before anyone respects you, you have to have a little respect for yourself. It all starts with a change in perspective and some direction, decide what you want to change in yourself and make it happen. Baby steps. Get some exercise.
Quote Originally Posted by ProtoStar:
Boys I'm sorry if I went too far last time. Thats what I do. I go to far, make a clown out of myself then hate myself for it. Shooting the dirt is not worth making a clown out of myself.
Well I had thanksgiving today like everyone else. Went to my parents to eat. Did not want to go. My family thinks I'm an absolute joke. I can't stand most of my family for the simple reason that they cant stand me. I never provoked them or anything. They give me suttle mental jabs. It hurts.
The whole time I'm thinking I wish I could just fly away. Just climb onto the roof and fly away and be free. Be me. Next it will be Christmas then 2011. I wonder what kind of torture is waiting for me in 2011. I can't wait. I'll turn 34 in 2011. What a loser.
West End
I wish I could have sung this song and been these guys.
I'm actually to starting to think there's a chance he isn't full of shit
Proto, I know they are your family but don't let them take jabs at you knowing you want say anything. Say exactly what they did and say you don't understand why they would put you down like that on Thanksgiving. Before anyone respects you, you have to have a little respect for yourself. It all starts with a change in perspective and some direction, decide what you want to change in yourself and make it happen. Baby steps. Get some exercise.
Update. I havent taken a shower since last tuesday. So a week if i dont take a shower tonight. I'm starting to smell bad. My wife wants 50 bucks for Christmas cards and I told her I dont have it. I do have it but in our financial situation how can she be buying Christmas cards for 50 dollars? We cant afford luxuries. Now I feel terrible for lying. Maybe I deserve my situation. No way, nobody deserves this.
Wife coverd up the last hole in the wall. We have the weirdest looking den it has pictures everywhere for no reason. I feel bad for putting holes in the wall. After sleeping until 2pm and forcing myself off the couch I got my dogs meds and rented nightmare on elm street. You know you are getting old when they start remaking all the movies you saw as a child. The original Freddy was a lot better IMHO but who cares. Johnny Depp made his movie debut in the original too.
We got a Christmas tree and blah blah blah.
I have to move down on my meds but to do so will make me feel like I have the flu times 10 blah blah blah.
I sit and wonder if Bert off of sesame street had a better life than me. The fog is supposed to roll in tomorrow. I cry a little, then buck up like a man, then start bawling. I am officially an emotional wreck.
spitfire thanks for the advice Im trying baby steps.
I remember a beautiful girl I once thought about all the time and how she took my heart and broke it in half. It sucks and it makes me more sad. I think I have fever.
Amanda
Update. I havent taken a shower since last tuesday. So a week if i dont take a shower tonight. I'm starting to smell bad. My wife wants 50 bucks for Christmas cards and I told her I dont have it. I do have it but in our financial situation how can she be buying Christmas cards for 50 dollars? We cant afford luxuries. Now I feel terrible for lying. Maybe I deserve my situation. No way, nobody deserves this.
Wife coverd up the last hole in the wall. We have the weirdest looking den it has pictures everywhere for no reason. I feel bad for putting holes in the wall. After sleeping until 2pm and forcing myself off the couch I got my dogs meds and rented nightmare on elm street. You know you are getting old when they start remaking all the movies you saw as a child. The original Freddy was a lot better IMHO but who cares. Johnny Depp made his movie debut in the original too.
We got a Christmas tree and blah blah blah.
I have to move down on my meds but to do so will make me feel like I have the flu times 10 blah blah blah.
I sit and wonder if Bert off of sesame street had a better life than me. The fog is supposed to roll in tomorrow. I cry a little, then buck up like a man, then start bawling. I am officially an emotional wreck.
spitfire thanks for the advice Im trying baby steps.
I remember a beautiful girl I once thought about all the time and how she took my heart and broke it in half. It sucks and it makes me more sad. I think I have fever.
this is therapy fpr you...expressing yourself...everyone gets down once and awhile...especially in this business...put some peroxide on the tip of your penis to burn out the infection...
this is therapy fpr you...expressing yourself...everyone gets down once and awhile...especially in this business...put some peroxide on the tip of your penis to burn out the infection...
take a sabbatical from cynical sing the battle hymn and lift the mood pistol packin' prison moves if you didn't get your shit in action symptoms rack up quickly too...............
wallstreetcappers craps in his draws and pees fuckin backwards from his vaj with a squirt.
take a sabbatical from cynical sing the battle hymn and lift the mood pistol packin' prison moves if you didn't get your shit in action symptoms rack up quickly too...............
"My wife wants 50 bucks for Christmas cards and I told her I dont have it.I do have it but in our financial situation how can she be buying
Christmas cards for 50 dollars? We cant afford luxuries. Now I feel
terrible for lying."
"My wife wants 50 bucks for Christmas cards and I told her I dont have it.I do have it but in our financial situation how can she be buying
Christmas cards for 50 dollars? We cant afford luxuries. Now I feel
terrible for lying."
you can keep that to yourself ProtoStar.
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