Asking for acceptance

nnaaahhhh man, your way off Leggy. Getting drunk will fuel a passion for a addict like proto, or myself for that fact to get more resourceful.

Im not saying that you get drunk and magically drugs appear, I am just saying that a junkie will find a way to get his fix (especially if he is drinking in excess) they say marijuana is a gateway drug....my ass.

I get stoned and i barely get off the couch, when i drink in excess it usually ends me up in a bad spot. trying to find coke, or ex, or Xanax  what ever i can get my grimy little paws on...but i have more than 10 dollars left over at the end of the month after bills so...

Drink up and be merry, Whats with you Leggy. You have been really depressed about dough lately huhh? i know its
Christmas and all, hard time to be broke...PM me with your address and i will send you a bottle of your choice for Christmas....from Santa 

And I am not offering to send anyone else on Covers Christmas presents...I think Leggy needs a pick me up that's all...

The rest of you want a present follow Nropp11 on NCAAB hoops, my man neil knows his shit and consistently picks winners...maybe that'll help...

Merry Christmas Muthf#$kers  

Yea, I hate Christmas. I am broke, single, I have no friends. I will be sitting at home on Christmas alone. I am not saying this for anyone to have pity on me. That is just my reality. I will probably get a under $20 used PS3 game and wrap it and give it to myself for a present and play that on Christmas.

Well if you were like me and went to a bar with $20 then you wouldnt have that problem. I could have all the drugs offered to me in the world and wouldnt be able to get any of them anyways so there you go problem solved.

 

geeeeeeeeeeeeezus,,,,,somebody give this man a hug (insert hug emoticon)

hey cheer up and look on the bright side at least your ugly

Hey proto....... lets shoot the dirt

Christmas is just a immoral lie anyway. One decrepit, materialistic  twist of the things most important in life.


Like smoking weed and bitches.

On a serious, you do this by choice right? What about the parents, they don't last forever?

They live in another state. I wish I could spend Christmas with them but I can't afford a plane ticket or the time off work.

Sounds like high time for a 6lb ribeye, baked potato, and bottle of red wine. 

Happiness is relative, which means you don't have to get back to where you were 20 years ago to be happy again - you just have to get to one step ahead of where you are now.


Do something Proto, anything that can improve the situation a little bit.  Put real time and effort into something and you will start to enjoy your free time instead of letting it torture you.  Don't worry about fixing 10 problems at once... fix one, feel better, and it will help you keep going.  Baby steps.

Legwand, please, DO SOMETHING on Christmas asshole!  That's probably why you're depressed... you don't see how easily you can change a lonely depressing situation into something better.  Do what kindergartencapper does... go serve food at a homeless shelter whatever they call them.  Might give you some perspective to see how well off you are and how hard some of the people there are working to get half of what you have.  Do something, feel better, and use that motivation to do something else.  6 months from now you can be a completely different confident person, or you can be in the same place you are now.  You just have to pick one, and not deciding is just continuing to do nothing.

Or work a hardcore long shift at work with overtime if that's possible.  Earn yourself a Christmas gift.

I just found out we are not getting a christmas bonus this year. I was really counting on that money this year.

Wow that sucks.  I hear you.. I was really counting on this $150 I was getting about a week ago... turned out I was getting $50.  Misunderstanding, and I was on the wrong end of it.  More debt.

Leggy this is supposed to be Proto's depressing ass post, you are stealing his thunder...make a comeback brother....

great xmas song!                                   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fvNRHrKyaX4
 

Misery loves company so I figured I would contribute my misery to this thread as well. Proto isn't the only one who is going through hard times.

In my last post I asked if I was the only one going through this crap so I welcome leggy and his admission of misery.  Leggy do you think you are clinically depressed or is this just a temporary hard time?

I think I am clinically depressed. 

Leggy if I went out tonight and got drunk, good chance I would run into somebody who knew I had not been on drugs for a long time and I would be given drugs.  I told you guys at one time I was a very popular guy.  The problem is that the next day I would wake up with an insatiable urge to continue doing drugs and drinking.  I would have to fight this urge for days before it went away.  The feeling is like working out for a long time without water and you are so thirsty but then imagine there is no water for you to drink.  That is the worst feeling and that is what its like to be addicted to drugs.  You have to fight off the urge to not drink the water for a long time before you are relieved of the urge to drink water.  Understand?

Today I got in a car and drove around to the places I use to hang out 10 years ago.  Everything has changed.  Everybody has moved.  The roads are different, I felt weird and sad.  I put in some old music I use to listen to.  It was this song to be exact.

extra prolific-go back to school

The memories started to flow and I wanted to get drunk soooo bad but I didnt.  Its coming I can feel it.  Soon I could relapse.  How good would it feel to blast off or push off after all this time.

I'm a addict, dictionary style.

Just to make it clear, I have 2 sets of addiction.  There is the every day maintenance to keep myself from getting sick, that is opiates and benzos.  I get high just for a short time but not very high just sleepy.  The main thing is that it keeps me from getting physically sick and having seizures.

Then there is the binge addict in me which I have supressed now for years.  This begins with tons of alcohol which leads to cocaine, crack, or extacy.  That is when it becomes really bad and I end up in jail and stuff.

Proto is back shooting the dirt, good to see you back however i do not think u and leggy are in quite the same situation.....As I stated earlier    Good to see your doing well Proto ....Lets shoot some more Dirt, What have you been up to lately proto? any crazy shit?

dopey I dont do crazy shit anymore.  its all downhill for me i guess.  its like John Melancamp said life goes on long after the thrill of living is gone. 

hopefully i will come across some cash somehow to bet on some bowl games and that will be all the excitement for me. 

about once a year now i take some pink 30mg adderalls and that gets me pumped up for a little while but whoopti do.

I threw everything away to hang out and be a drunk with my friends who then turned their back on me.  I threw it all away for them.  I would be worth many millions now had I simply gone to work and stayed.  Read what I wrote before about the family business that is now sold.  Its in this thread somewhere.

Legwand, meet your long lost twin brother Protostar...

This is a lost at birth type of situation here...

Proto feel free to not answer this question...How is it if you dont appear to work. Monetarily feed and pay the monthly bills? Do you have a work from home job, Does your wife make all the money and support u all, Maybe a trust fund...I am just a little curious, I know you don't have money to gamble; however you live in a home with internet correction????


Just shooting the dirt...LeFlueh Eshoska

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