you gotta know when to hold em. know when to fold 'em..

Well here we go again. FSG is once again in shit rapids with no paddle or safety gear.

Im not the smartest guy in the world and I have made my share of mistakes. I Learned alot from my mistakes as well.

Since last october I watched my dad die from colon cancer...watched my uncle and my mom and the rest of my family break to smithereens, and until recently I felt strong and hopefull.

My parents split when I was 12 and my mom moved out and took my sister along who was 9. It wasnt pretty but I managed and do not blame my parents for my situation.

I do however blame my mother for ruining my sister. Introducing my sister to new men who were not her father I do not agree with. My sister now 21 has cut.herself numerous times, has a ketamine addiction as well as who knows what else. My dad used and mom used to tell me they found syringes as well.

I love my sister and mom but they have both caused me so much additional stress its unbelievable.

From 2 years Up until my dads diagnosis it was my dad and my sister and me and my mom. (My father and I are both stubborn and I did leave home eventually.due to fighting) Only when he was dyining did.I get a chance to see him again and spend time together and 'bury the hatchet'...it was his wish to have the family together for a last christmas... one night when my sister went out he told me i would have to take over and be 'man of the house' and that he was 'sorry'. He told me I would be ok and that I would have money and all the weed I wanted. (My dad grew 10 plants in the basement since my mom moved out to pay for the mortgage)

My mother immediatly exited her condo lease and moved into the house as well. Today I am in a one bedroom apartment with a months rent oweing and have been so since june. She called the cops like the mom from the movie 'Blow'. She told them I beat her but no charges were ever laid. I was told to leave the house.

I have no job...no money....I am going to sell my remaining possessions and fly to Jamaica for the winter. I have stayed there before for 3 months. Will cost about 500 a month to live as I have accomodations paid for.

I know this is a fucked up story, but I also know that covers is a good place to get advice and get the truth. Even if the truth hurts.

So let's hear it. Am I insane? Or am I lucky to have a last resort.

Wow that's alot ill summarize.

My dad died. My mom wants the house. So does my uncle.
I have no lawyer and have been kicked out of the house by my mom.
I have no job and all monies I have received are now gone.
I can't pay my rent any more.
Nobody is hiring me.
Im thinking of selling my possessions and moving to jamaica for atleast the winter.

going to jamaica for a few months is just putting off the inevitable. Better off using that money on something more stable. Good luck bro.

Man thats some fucked up shit. Goodluck in your situationa and quest to greatness?

I learned to never let a relationship go. Never make decisions when you are mad. Always make an attempt at peace.

My dad changed his will so many times out of spite..when the time really came it was too late to change his mind again. Here I am now. Fucked.

When you are there, set up a business to assist covers posters with getting pinnacle accts.

Big business, easy money.

This is a sad story man. But, it's a common one. Lots of people have fucked up family lives. It's how you decide to deal with it that can make things better .....or worse.

Unless you plan on permanently moving to Jamaica, I agree with Messier. Your problems will still be here when you get back.

Do you have any close friends or other family that can put you up for a little bit? Once you find a place to stay for a month or 2, the next step is getting a job.

Your immediate problems are a roof over your head and income... you need to address those asap.

If the inevitable happens in the winter im done. hungry in jamaica? u pick up.a rock and kill a goat. Im just thinking survival right now. Honestly trying everyday to make it here...handing out resumes and cover letters...not getting shit. Im going to the police station tomorrow to see if my mischief charges show.from when I was a teen.

At this point it seems there is nothing left here..if I leave there is no job or job of importance that I would be losing. Im renting the apartment so I can just let that expire.

The only thing bounding me is the idea I have to 'make something' of myself. Its a common feeling for young men like myself. But the reasoning behind it does not seem to exist. It seems irrational.

I know selling my possessions will only take me so far...but Im going to have to move if I don't find a decent job ASAP.

FSG seriously listen to Van about setting up a business to get gamblers access to pinny.   

Yeah - I was dead serious and it was totally ignored in favor of killing a goat with a rock and selling all of his possessions. 

If you opened a service to help americans get "virtual citizenship" in Jamaica - you would have more business than you could handle.

i read it man. thank you and everyone else who isnt ripping on me (wheres abooksnightmare, usually here by now) anyway ... im looking to submit to the shittiest job right now as a means to end this madness. furthermore, i am totally interested in how a dream like that could be established

vanzack and I go into big biz. 50% of the company in return for startup investment?

theres other provinces in canada i can move as well. i love montreal and would live there in a flash. I have an interview friday for a marketing position at a financial institution if that doesnt hit, Im going to get a security guard or forklift license.

what the fuck are you talking about bro?

do you have a drug problem?

ok. you're kicked out and broke.

how old are you?

why cant you get a job?

i need some answers to give advice. so don't other people.

van wouldn't trust you with a pair of 3 year old sneakers.

asshole, i saw your post...your pathetic.

dont throw stones when u live in a glass house. talking to me about drug problem?

you're/you are pathetic...if anything more than I because you're 30.

HomeBoy. i live in Toronto also. Life is Hard my Bro got 25yrs when i was 14, Pops was a Pimp growing up in and out of jail, Moms Party so much and was left for grandma to raise me. i didnt come out all the best neither, but I'm styll grinding it out. We Live in A BIG City. I dont want a Job Cause I JUST Dont want one. my income is Great right now. I live on my own also in a 1 bedroom paying $875 month. I'm Not saying go get a Ruban on spot and try and Flip it but its sounds like u live with People. Rent cant be more than $500/mth for u. how are u so Behind?? what did you do with all your income u had before?? there so Many Job Agencys u can go to If u REALLY WANT TO WORK. Here I will Give u One. LABOUR READY. 888-245-2267 Get on ur Grind Homie. Life is rough but when u think about it. NOBODY is gonna HELP u if you dont HELP YOURSELF.  keep your Head up my Dude and PM me i'll help u out

Interesting thread. I'm curious to see what happens because I have always been interested in just picking up and moving somewhere that is away from everything and everyone I know.

However I don't have your family issues.

I had a job working for a financial advisor when I was 19. Ive worked for the government and ive worked for.the grocery store

i was being serious.

GL, move to jamaica and open up a pinny account for van. all of these other high rollers on covers will also give you 10% of their winnings. you'll be rich.

bro, i pay 990 one bdrm all by myself..been paying it since june. sold my motorcycle (yeah i ended.up getting.that kawasaki) had to buy everything man. everything. i got an interview friday.

wish me luck...i.dont wanna flip no birds. my dad had me set 20oz of c99/afghani kush every 2 months. thats 25grand a year.right there. pops gave me his.bankcard with 20grand herbs money on it and my uncle.jacked.it.

How did you lose all your loot? I don't understand.

Start working all the time at whatever job and smoke a bit of weed, but  not too much because you can't afford it.

That is some pathetic shit that ur Unc wants ur dad's house. Now that is a real loser.