Troubled Waters

Well I did not follow through on my plans to quit gambling and now I am in a pickle.  Bet on the Heat tonight and guess what they blew a 9 point lead going into the 4th quarter.  Feel like I'm losing my mind.  See if I would have changed like I said things would not be this bad.  So it's gone from bad to horrible whats next I can't wait. 

The night is here and I hold myself while laying on the couch.  Crying inside and out, I think back to an easier time, a time in which I had so much hope for the future, a time as sweet as a sugar plum. 

Oh boy February is almost here I can't wait.  What's next, I can only imagine.  I want somebody to hold me but it can only be a dream.

When I'm with you

  

 Packers -2.5 for the large.

Henry I need about 30 thousand dollars at least but could only scrounge up maybe 100 or 200 by super bowl time.  What good would that do well let me answer that for you, none.  Way too little too late.  I'm approaching middle age and its not getting any better.

If I gave you $30,000 would gamble with it?

I would use it for repairs to my house then if any was left over I would gamble with it.  Henry can you do this for me?

3rd orbital now, its my favorite time of day because sometimes I have the nicest dreams of yesteryear.  My friends are still friends, I'm young, handsome, smart, and I am caressing a beautiful girl.  Please let me be now, it's my only peaceful time.  Upon waking up I will want to render myself back unconscious and sometimes I do. 

Henry let me know soon because I am having thoughts of armed robbery.  I can't deal with it.

Proto-

You'll gamble the money away.  You'll make the repairs, but when you start losing the money that is left over, there will be new damages to your house.  You've got a good brain, man.  You can figure your way out of this.  Decide what you want to and start doing it.  Find a way. 

If you rob a bank and get caught you'll do 20 years in federal prison.  Meaning no parole, so you'll do the entire 20 years.  Think of your wife and kid, bro. 

What do you want to do in life besides gamble?

 

I would.

So would proto.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dGR65RWwzg8

Proto....Don't you wish you could spread your wings and fly away?

O fuck here we go again with more of this self loathing shit.

O well at least Michaelpaul will be happy now

asking someone for 30 thousand bucks. Michael Paul will give you thirty thousand bucks. All he needs is 29,970 more

He just wants to shoot dirt, hear him out.

MIchaelpaul

proto is back shooting dirt.....

hang in there dirt-shooter

YES! Shootin the dirt...

Proto, good luck with what you choose. You seem like a smart person and will figure it out

for you proto
come on yo

Proto, love the song

here is one for you

Proto is that really you????

Anyhow, if so I just wanted to let you know that I've got something big going down and need a couple of role players still, big score we're talking here. Let me know if you're interested.

repeat my name biatch...

very

seems like you made a love connection...you two should hook up...