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try to keep this thread serious please.
So I've been on this site for a while, and some of you may have seen my posts, and some have not. Anyways, I have been living amongst my covers brothers for my past few years as someone who wakes up in the morning and thinks about spreads and totals. It's a sick life, but that what we're all accustomed to. Throughout the days, I would go to work, log on to this website, and continue to check line movement and totals throughout the morning and afternoon to watch for changes both moving toward the public as well as toward the sharp side. Then I would go home, log on to 5dimes, and watch the final seconds before gametime. I would bet on anything, baseball, NFL, NBA, College sports, tennis, soccer, fighting, etc. There were great days, there were awful days. Some days I might hit a 5 team parlay and make 10 times the original bet, It felt like the ultimate rush. Some days I would lose a 5 team parlay on a backdoor cover and feel like the lowest human on the planet. There were days where I couldn't sleep because of the adrenaline of a big day, and days where I couldn't sleep because I had just lost everything I had in my account.
The gambling eventually took a toll on my love of sports, I had no interest in watching my favorite teams unless there was money involved, one side or the other. I had no interest in watching playoff games without wagering on them, and it made me forget why I loved sports in the first place.
The gambling took a toll on my bank account, I had created a cycle of waiting for a direct deposit to be placed into my bank so that I could go and place a portion of it my book, and again on sunday, and again on Wednesday. By Thursday night, I had spent a large portion of my weekly pay and the cycle was about to start again.
Which brings me to today. If you are still reading this, I appreciate your interest, and hope you found my story well written and thought out, because that is the only way I could get my point across. Today was a day where I realized the kind of financial and emotional suicide I had created for myself. A kind of epiphany that one discovers when it is too late to repair the damages, but enough time remains to salvage the losses. I have discovered I have been living a life of self-destruction doing this hobby and activity we all enjoy. It came to me while I was driving home from the gym, fresh off another loss after a small deposit hours prior. I cannot do this anymore, it needs to stop. I know you guys have been doing this for years and for those able to separate this little niche we have from their personal life I commend you for it, for those who can't, step back and examine your situation, the way I have. It may lead you to realizations you never thought possible. I will use my income to save for a new car, invest in the stock market through advice of peers, and plan my future. I do not know if I will wager again, but I know the status quo will end tonight. Thank you guys for those who read this, I hope it wasn't too long, but I felt this was the only way I would get this off my chest. Who else would understand me better than my covers bros.
Thanks guys
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