Sometimes in life, you find yourself doing things you would never do or thought you would be doing. The game of life for a gambler is a road of up and downs and I tend to usually have a first class front seat on the roller coaster. I am 33 now and at this point, I just have faded memories of all the baller shit I have gotten to do. Spent all my money, no bills currently other than court fines, but the motherfucker is you need money to live. I have gotten by as a gypsy over the last 3 years since a bogus arrest because of a bar incident kept me legally tied to the shitty state of Texas in 2010. I have not given a fuck since then but shit is getting real for me these days. I tried to escape to Las Vegas but as with my recent life luck, things that I counted on did not turn out as they should have. I flew back to visit my hometown of North Little Rock, AR and that first weekend I caught a DWI charge. Shit happens...Now it looks like I am going to stay here and put off my hopes of bigger things in Las Vegas.
My problem is I want big things to happen and I have put too much faith in what others promise me what will happen. I count on it and I find out what was said to have me believe, turns out to be full of shit. I am about to explain a low in my life where I had to do something I did not want to and deal with idiot pricks who truly believed I was the idiot. Funny how that works because there is always someone dumber than you but the dummy does not know it.
Luckily I am not in the gutter at dick suck status but I know the feeling of losing everything several times over. And drawing upa brand new plan and making that work.
There have been a few times recently where I have actually heard the fat lady sing. It worried me that I may soon be done but I just realized I need to quit putting my dick in fat chics.
I was waking up everyday with no money, counting on women I was seeing to get by during hard times. I seem to always have it like that even though I never plan it. I am used to having things and doing stuff so I have to suck it up and kick some ass again. I have done it before and I am doing it again. I have recently accepted a good paying job here in my home state and am just now about to start after being sidelined with no plan B over the last 2 months. During that two months I have gotten creative again and have a little hustle I kill at. I hate doing it but what I make is well worth the time and effort I put in. Plus nobody is doing what I am, some have copied my work but I take pride in their shit sucking.
During that 2 months I had no money coming in, in a state I did not plan on being in and to top it off, the rug got pulled out from under me. Just another step for a stepper I always say. With pressure from family telling me what "they think I should do". I thought it would be a swell idea to sign up at Labor Finders to get that monkey off my back until things line up for me. Labor Finders is place where you show up at 5:30am and they assign you daily labor jobs for embarrassingly low pay. And you can bet on the job they give you that day will be just as degrading as sucking dicks in alleys behind dumpsters! Work is work right? LOL! I am not used to the low pay but when you are temporarily staying with family that never has understood the risks I have always taken, they just want you to "go to work". Nothing personal against my family but I can't stand these type assholes that think if "you are working, that is all that matters". These assholes of course are set in their own life, not to say they have not put in the time in whatever it was they do for a living. And in most cases, these assholes were handed the golden pass to the gravy train because of their father or grampa's company. That is how shit works. You have to know somebody on the inside. But silver spoon motherfuckers are always quick to say shit on what others should do without having hardship experiences themselves. I like how they think things just happen and why is it not happening for the next guy. It costs money to make money so when or if you ever get to zero like I did. You have to figure something out. Even if you have to start by wasting your time where you will never get ahead to make the asshole types happy. "Good for you Salty, you are making an effort! Hard work pays off" What a damn joke!
Give me a break with that bullshit philosophy! If you are not clever or have some skills, you will end up at Labor Finders and never get ahead in life. Guys work damn hard at these jobs but daily grunt construction labor for minimum wage is what that hard work will bring. You do the math. $7.25 an hour for 8 hours. $1 or more average comes out for taxes per hour, 15 bucks in gas to and from, if you eat that day add another $10 bucks. You net for the day about $25-$30 for your efforts. Keep in mind you got there at 5:30am and do not make it back home till 5 or 6 pm. The out of touch asshole does not realize you only have about $125-$150 for a full week of ditch digging. But "you are working"! Get the fuck out of here with that bullshit I say.