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Posted: 2/14/2011 1:46:15 PM
QUOTE Originally Posted by standuley:

IMO if ur smoking some of the top notch green and drinking on top of it, ur not going to need the Z's or anything else for sleep...

And also if ur drinking a good bit and taking  a bar n a half of Zannies  and smoking a bowl of sum kush, you would be crippled




dude my habits would make this small.....and i am not crippled. This is a mans club. We get Fu#$ed up like men here............prob took down a quarter this weekend. but no bars and no pills so...soo far soo good...also i have been drinking with a purpose lately..
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Posted: 2/18/2011 6:11:28 PM

since i made a comment at proto's book club i felt the need to say somethin to the dopesta since ive followed your thread here with interest. i commend you on your recent attitude. hope it continues how you want it too. addictions do run there course. good or bad. i choke throughout the day and wish i could have that real high sensation like the beginning stages. body too dependant on it now since the start of this ride. cant get off. nor do i want too. dont want my blood to boil. the wat not and me fit perfect. i hate people and most all of um tend to have me understand this when encountered with each example, like today the dipsh*t lady in the grocery line looking for a 50 cent coupon for a $1 item. here's 5 bones lady just move the line forward already so i can go home and choke ya know...to some up my b.s., if im gonna make a comment on that highly entertaining thread of proto's, then i felt compelled to spit some b.s. your way as well since i read your thread too, am amused by your picture, and enjoyed your subject discussed here. good to hear your positive approach to realizing over time the body just cant do what it used to and still flourish. you got plenty of time and you seem to have a good understanding of your life and situation. i do agree with charlie sheen's recent quote tho. life being sober is boring. i figured that out long ago. just know your limit...

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Posted: 2/18/2011 6:50:47 PM
QUOTE Originally Posted by ocd:

since i made a comment at proto's book club i felt the need to say somethin to the dopesta since ive followed your thread here with interest. i commend you on your recent attitude. hope it continues how you want it too. addictions do run there course. good or bad. i choke throughout the day and wish i could have that real high sensation like the beginning stages. body too dependant on it now since the start of this ride. cant get off. nor do i want too. dont want my blood to boil. the wat not and me fit perfect. i hate people and most all of um tend to have me understand this when encountered with each example, like today the dipsh*t lady in the grocery line looking for a 50 cent coupon for a $1 item. here's 5 bones lady just move the line forward already so i can go home and choke ya know...to some up my b.s., if im gonna make a comment on that highly entertaining thread of proto's, then i felt compelled to spit some b.s. your way as well since i read your thread too, am amused by your picture, and enjoyed your subject discussed here. good to hear your positive approach to realizing over time the body just cant do what it used to and still flourish. you got plenty of time and you seem to have a good understanding of your life and situation. i do agree with charlie sheen's recent quote tho. life being sober is boring. i figured that out long ago. just know your limit...

I had to give up the hard garbage, but no bullshit at all....if some porn stars wanted to chill all night and go on a bender, there's no way I would say "no."  It would be another one of those nights that turned into the next day

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Posted: 2/18/2011 7:30:25 PM

met cs, sorta. got a connection with his show. he is as he seems. not a bad life if controlled and didnt embarass childrens. but its tiring. but ill take it damn near everyday. comedy. dont believe all that tabloid b.s. either. just sorta kinda not really but a lil envious in a way that he got a hold of my girl bree olson for a vegas throwdown...yumz. wish i met her on the set of the show. she has a chance to still be hot after 35 if she plays her cards right. comedy. not sure about the rest of the tiger woods road kill he was with tho...gotta love the internet...three stacks of high society for that kacey jordan? no cs no! thats what you call having too much money to waste.

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Posted: 6/16/2011 5:20:16 PM
Here is a update.........i was looking forward to keeping this thread alive and i feel that it helps me to write about my addictions. Honestly Gambling is not one, i haven't placed a wager in months...

I smoke weed daily but not much i would say i average .5 a gram of some of the stickiest garbage on the planet.....i cut down my average drinking substantially. I still get hammered but i dont drink every day and sometime will go weeks without drinking......but if i feel like taking down a bottle of sailor jerry's or crushing a 12 pack i will....

I quit eating xanax and ambien cold turkey for at least 3 months. That was what i was most worried about. Now i eat probably a stick every other day.....but nothing like 3-4 bars a day i was eating......I used to be a animal but i would say i cut my consumption down by 75% of all substances.

Funny thing about the entire process was i started this thread because i was curious if i was able t sustain a high level of production at my work.......So i got fairly clean.......first thing that happened was my productivity went way down.....I honestly think it is more of the industry that i am in....Rather than me being clean and sober....but i also would like to add i never get fucked up before work and never at work....im not the type of guy to step out and go smoke a bowl and come back to my work....all day i am clean than game is on......

Would love to hear thoughts from the crew........am i back on track to getting all fucked up, is it baby steps as y man DL36 would say...darn honestly i dont know garbage....im just dumb white trash who loves to get high......I know its a escape of some sort but i honestly dont know what i am escaping......I have a great life..

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Posted: 6/16/2011 5:28:00 PM
Wait dopa, you're white?
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Posted: 6/16/2011 5:42:58 PM
ya.....thats me in the avatar........
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Posted: 6/16/2011 5:45:33 PM
Yeah thats me in the avatar.........cant a young white man be dope, listen to rap music and blow weed? and get paid spamming. 



Honestly did you think i was a black man because of my name? do i type like a black man?
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Posted: 6/16/2011 5:54:39 PM
You're my WIGGA Dopa
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Posted: 6/16/2011 5:58:52 PM
QUOTE Originally Posted by mojo822:

You're my WIGGA Dopa

You know how many times i have been called that......I friggin hate it. I hunt, i fish, i carry a knife on me at all times.........im way more of a redneck than a Wigga......but everyone is entitled to there opinion.....I think i am just one of the blackest white men you will ever meet.

I love hot sauce and fried chicken too.....
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Posted: 6/16/2011 6:02:40 PM
hey dopa. how do you get cash spamming?
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Posted: 6/16/2011 6:29:56 PM
dopa -- nah bro I just thought that was you in the avatar forever
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Posted: 6/16/2011 7:04:20 PM
QUOTE Originally Posted by timbaland99:

hey dopa. how do you get cash spamming?

i am what you would call a internet marketing pirate........if your not into c## or aspx coding lets leave it be.......if you can code or program me send me a friend request and than pm me......

this thread is supposed to be about drug abuse tho.......i will answer any question honestly
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Posted: 6/16/2011 7:06:35 PM
QUOTE Originally Posted by kaponofor3:

dopa -- nah bro I just thought that was you in the avatar forever

ooooohhhhhhh how i miss that avatar.........it was the best avatar of all time on covers.......no debate......when i come across some new material its going up. this is only a temp.
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Posted: 6/17/2011 11:06:21 AM

it was best avatar eva...

enjoy the friday b*tchez

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Posted: 6/17/2011 6:49:12 PM

Its all good now, but one day soon it wont be. You cant keep abusing your body without repercussions.

GL bro

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Posted: 6/17/2011 8:09:10 PM
QUOTE Originally Posted by TRAIN69:

Its all good now, but one day soon it wont be. You cant keep abusing your body without repercussions.

GL bro


In the long run the repercussions from your mind are worse than the ones from your body 
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Posted: 6/17/2011 8:47:54 PM
QUOTE Originally Posted by dopalicous:




dude my habits would make this small.....and i am not crippled. This is a mans club. We get Fu#$ed up like men here............prob took down a quarter this weekend. but no bars and no pills so...soo far soo good...also i have been drinking with a purpose lately..


Exactly if you don't want your handful of cocaine ill do it for you. 
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Posted: 6/18/2011 7:07:05 AM
Awww man im gald im not a massive alcoholic
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Posted: 6/18/2011 8:32:43 PM
just now read this entire thread,  some very good info and life experiences here

great thread dopa,  glad you are doing well
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Posted: 6/19/2011 10:01:45 PM
Dopay!  We have many things in common.  Although I am on methadone maintenance now and small benzo habit, I have a long hard history of drug and alcohol addiction.  Dopay i hit the booze like nobody else and I could snort more cocaine or ice than anyone else.  I went on 4 day long crack binges.  10 day long ICE binges.  Pure stuff, it looks like shards of glass when you break it up.  Dopay I was on 12mg xanax a day, 1400mg soma per day, and 640mg of oxycontin per day.  Dopay I use to drink 2 count 40 ounces of malt liquor a day along with weed smoke, during the week.  On the weekends we drank 3 40 ounces a piece.  I was 15, 16 years old.  I was one of the best tennis players in the southeast.  Of course my skills went away quickly after I started the drinking and drugs. 

This was before the hard drugs.  Dopay I lived with an ICE dealer and there were girls at our disposal.  They wanted the clean stuff and there were about 4 in town that had it. 

Now maybe you can understand how hard it is to live my life the way it is now.  Trying to keep it under control.
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Posted: 6/19/2011 10:02:35 PM
Dopay maybe one day we can unite and give it one last bender together.  I would do that Dopay.
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